Recycling Trash I Gotta Get Past From: Carl The Muse Johnson

Sleepless nights creep up on you in life, they come at the hardest times when your legs can’t possibly move fast enough to keep up with your mind.

It’s been one of the most trying of my life. I am spinning all day and tossing all night.

It’s been a hell of a fight and there was no training no sparring, no chance for preparation, this is a learning on the job situation.

It’s gonna hurt forever, the pain may change but it won’t ever get better. It’s a cold hard fact, I just gotta live with that. I don’t need help being aware of my emotions, it’s how I react.

It’s never as bad as it seems, it’s just the worst to you, because it is your bad dream. Who feels what you feel? Who is dealing when you deal? When it hits like a brick I’m the one who’s nearly killed.

I’m trying to break the cycle of the worst days of my life being recycled but it feels like I’m fighting against hell without the arch angel Michael.


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Posted by on December 17, 2014 in All atricles


Suddenly I woke up and my own soul, my own path could no longer be ignored. From the soul of: Carl The Muse Johnson

Suddenly I’m up and awake

Suddenly my soul is perfectly aware of time and space

Suddenly aware of what it takes

Suddenly aware of the rapid pace

Suddenly aware of the inevitability we all face

Suddenly aware of the warmth from the fire

Suddenly immune from it’s flame

Suddenly the perspective fixed

Suddenly I can’t miss

Suddenly the reticle is aimed

Suddenly the harvest is being touched by the rain

Suddenly the drought is no more

Suddenly heaven has opened the flood gates and every door

Suddenly I can breathe again

Suddenly I can feel energy seeping through every pore of my skin

Suddenly it’s all changed and still the sun is shining like it never has before

Suddenly I woke up and my own soul, my own path could no longer be ignored. From the soul of: Carl The Muse Johnson


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Posted by on December 13, 2014 in All atricles


From Then To Now, This Is How By: Carl The Muse

It’s been harder lately to write because so many changes have occurred in my life. I have been stuck in a rut as days simply turn into nights. I lost my mother and my big brother weeks apart both suddenly and unexpected. My soul had been shocked and I was rocked to my core, in an instant life was drastically different than it was moments before.

I shut down, I stopped dreaming, I stopped talking, I stopped writing, I stopped running, I stopped moving forward and just waited for whatever was coming.

My mom went through the same thing at my age with my grandparents and my uncle Rose dying very close together of very different causes.

I watched as a kid, I was barely ten when I lost the first one, but I didn’t start to get it until it kept happening, but even then I didn’t have the same level of realization and depth of feeling I have now.

It hit like a blunt object to the head, the pain knocked my soul out, It radiated through me but on the other end of the pain, I am finding a strength, an energy.

I am finding where I need to be, the adjustment to the new normal, to the new roles and taking the wheel and knowing I am now responsible for how the rest of my family’s story unfolds.

Its hardest to tell the intimate truths within you to strangers, but sometimes it’s the strangers who are kindred, all you have to do is speak your language and it will be native to them, but who hears silence?

I’m ready to speak, I know many out there will feel me. My struggles are my own but they are not unique, we have all been chained but we don’t all break free.

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Posted by on December 10, 2014 in All atricles


Nothing Can Be Done Without Faith By: Carl The Muse

It takes a leap

A whole big heap

It’s the only thing you can call

When everything else says defeat

Its the only thing you got left to get you back on your feet

When you hit rock bottom

It’s becomes simple does the math

It’s the only thing that will help you right the ship

And get you back on your path

They say trouble don’t last

But in those short times

You better find it fast

There is no way around it

This is the trait

No living soul can bypass

You better learn it now

Before it’s too late

And lives gives you too much to handle

And you end up on your face

It’s the only way you will know

It will all be ok

There is no survival or growth


Nothing Can Be Done Without Faith By: Carl The Muse

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Posted by on September 30, 2014 in All atricles



It’s hard to fight what you can’t deny: By Carl The Muse

Call me

Call me out loud

Call me silently surrounded by a crowd

The waves you send

The chills they are profound

I can hear you so clearly

If you are far I’m fooled

You feel so near

Like you are inside of me

Or you are just within a shout of my ear

Either way

I can feel

Like I am getting closer to you

With every tear I feel myself loosing the fear

Every struggle has brought me nearer

To the moment

The place the time

To where I can truly find my way out of darkness

And embrace the sunshine

It felt like it would never happen

Now it feels like it’s right on time

If I had to wait a hundred years

As long as I get to experience it

I don’t mind

Just tell me where it starts

But I must be honest

This time

I may just cut the line

It’s hard to fight what you can’t deny: By Carl The Muse

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Posted by on August 2, 2014 in All atricles


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When Paths Cross By: Carl The Muse

There was a spider that found it’s way inside today and it ended up hanging right in front of my face. I knocked the web down the spider hit the ground and it was from there the message was profound.

At first I was going to crush it but today I felt, I thought, I saw life and rather than kill it, I found it not deadly not aggressive, it was simply a baby spider lost, obviously to find itself in my bathroom where it’s bug free as opposed to outside the abundant wildlife and insects just on the other side of the glass.

I decided for life, I decided to take a few moments of my time to try to save life, because I had the power to do so, in losing my mother my brother and so many others I felt powerless over life, I got to know I have very little control but with that said I do have some and with that knowledge I fight for life, big or small, I can see the significance of because I know love and love is life and a love for life yours and those that cross yours.

The one who God gave the power to in this instance was me, I could have killed it and never had another thought but then who and what does that make me? I’ll let God decide but I took my time and got the baby spider on with his life.

Hopefully we are both better having met.

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Posted by on August 1, 2014 in All atricles


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Day And Night, It’s Life By: Carl The Muse

Many mornings of my life I could barely open my eyes, I felt barely alive, I felt dry, inside I had no drive, a total vacuum of my pride.

That was then

Before the sunrise, now it’s warm, I’m embraced by the sun, I had no legs just moments ago it seems and now I am ready to run, it was a sudden shift, it came like the road runner, I’m saying swift.

Like night and day, it’s always inching closer to the change but no matter the weather outside, in you the faith must remain, it’s the only way to maintain, so live your life and love with all your might, Get out of your brain and faster than you can blink your eyes, Nothing will ever be the same. Like day and night suddenly it will all change.

Day And Night, It’s Life By: Carl The Muse

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Posted by on August 1, 2014 in All atricles


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